But what are you supposed to do, when quite literally the only thing you’ve ever dreamed of having is the one thing you have absolutely 100% bad luck in.
Like I doubt i will actually know what it’s like, to have someone gaze lovingly at me, to wrap me in his arms and pull me close, just to let me know everything will be alright. To have someone fight every fiber of their being to be with you.
Why do I have to be so awkward, why am I so broken, why is it no matter what i do it’s never good enough.
Don’t you get it? I broke my rules for you and then you broke my heart.